Feelings and Words

Hebrews 2:6, “…What is mankind that you are mindful of them…” (NIV).

It’s short, but I am feeling every word of that, this morning.

Psalm 86, “Hear me, Lord, and answer me, for I am poor and needy. Guard my life, for I am faithful to you; save your servant who trusts in you. You are my God; have mercy on me, Lord, for I call to you all day long. Bring joy to your servant, Lord, for I put my trust in you. You, Lord, are forgiving and good, abounding in love to all who call to you. Hear my prayer, Lord; listen to my cry for mercy. When I am in distress, I call to you, because you answer me. Among the gods there is none like you, Lord; no deeds can compare with yours. All the nations you have made will come and worship before you, Lord; they will bring glory to your name. For you are great and do marvelous deeds; you alone are God” (NIV).

It’s longer, but I am feeling every word of that, too.

Somehow, I think this might all come together for a Thursday Theology post, later today, and let’s be real—I certainly hope it does!  Blogging ten times a week borders on insane in a ‘normal’ seven day period, but during General Assembly?  Well…  I guess I never claimed sanity…

God is mindful of us.  That seems pretty upside down.  I’m not sure we hear much about this, because even in religious circles the relationship tends to run in the opposite direction: be mindful of God, be mindful of God, be mindful of God.  And yet, we have this God who legitimately cares about humanity, which is a pretty big deal… all the time… but maybe especially so when we are in distress.

I’m not sure I can claim distress, today (at least not yet… it’s not even 8am), but I have already uttered the words, “God, I have no idea what you’re doing!” 

I have this desire to join God in God’s work, and I know that’s happening all around me.  This particular week, it’s even more ‘in my face’ than ordinary, and I love that, because experiencing the marvelous deeds of our glorious God is redemptive… and refreshing… and it makes my heart happy. 

But if I’m honest, there is at least a little part of me that feels needy.  To be perfectly candid, I probably picked the best time ever to feel like this, because I was hugged at least a trillion times yesterday, so there’s that…

But God… and God’s mindfulness… and my neediness… and my willingness…  If it could all line up for just a minute, this could be a beautiful day.

L.